Oh dear, what have I been reduced  to. Being psychoanalysed by suburban divorcees on popular dating sites.  OMG as these illiterates constantly write. 'Your beaker's only half  empty' begins the accusation. All I can answer is, 'no, my glass is half  full and perhaps you'd be kind enough so as to top it up!'
Idiots.
They  recommend self-help literature to me, the Dalai Lama being at the top  of their lisps. Good luck to you in your search. i wont bother you any  more. I'm going blogging instead.
Personally  I prefer Maurice Merleau-Ponty to self-help books. has anyone actually  thought that perhaps the very term 'Self Help' is a misnomer? The best I  ever read was by Paul Livingstone (aka Flacco) entitled; Releasing the  Imbecile Within.
Now,  don't get me wrong. I'm open minded and and willing to learn new ideas.  i've read lots of Buddhist literature over the years. I'm sure the  Dalai Lama has many wise things to say for himself.
Trouble  is, I'm not Tibetan and have no desire to be, if they'd actually be  stupid enough to give me citizenship in the first place. besides, i'd  probably outrageously side with the Chinese, who do have a point when  they argue that the clerics did nothing to provide for the locals in  terms of health, education or democratization when the place was under  their theocratic control.
Anyway,  in my more reflective moments I do realize the poor buggers there are  oppressed by an imperial power. So what, so too is Mexico and at least  half of the South American continent. Europe, Canada and Australia have  been little more than a tributary states of the US of A since World War  II. So now we are passing the baton to China. Does it really matter? Is  that really my reality?
Well,  yes and no. I had an awakening several months ago. After being an avid  news reader for many years, I finally awoke to the fact that the news is  not reality. That in fact, reality, the whole damn lot of it, is there  right before my very eyes. The whole universe is present before me in  microcosmic form. It is really a matter of faith that there is a world  out there and it exists. From my perspective it appears simultaneously  as being both immanent and transcendent. Voila!
The  whole world is present on the horizon. I can sense it. It is both  tangible and visible whether i can see it or not. I can differentiate  that world into a variety of constellations. All is possible if only  accept the impossibility of sensing the totality of experience exterior  to me. This is because much of what I sense is intuitive, that is, I  sense both the visible, that which is given to me, and the invisible,  that which only ever an always already there sense that there is  something which is not perceptible but there in any case.
As  I burn my toast in the morning, the universe is still becoming and  evolving, entropy still continues and ceases to abate in spite of the  best wishes in the world. This is so much background noise to my toast.  The toast burns along with a village in Afghanistan; my coffee boils  simultaneous with the earthquake relief effort in Haiti. The failure of  world leaders to make any headway on agreement in Copenhagen is present  as I spill the sugar into my cup and throw out the old toast, only  replace it with fresh slices in the hope that I can maintain the  semblance of manageability this time, cook the toast to perfection, and  take it and my coffee out to watch my goldfish feeding in their pond.  Just because I don't perceive all this extraneous invisibility before me  does not mean it is not happening.
It  both is and isn't happening, just as love both is and isn't  perceivable, and that the forces of the universe's expanding both are  and are not present as I prepare my meager breakfast. Whether I like to  bring such thoughts to consciousness or not are a choice that my ego  makes. Either it is or is not too much for me to cope with. Either I am  humble before the universe or engrossed with the discontent of making my  toast and topping it with jam and magarine. (Butter if you prefer!)